Oct

Back to School – A Mental Struggle

Ryan

I’m at a loss once again. But it’s different this time. I’m happy at my job; it’s going great and frankly, I’m really excited about all the opportunities. I guess what I’m getting discouraged about, are my long term goals. I’ve written before how I’ve always wanted to do this, or I wanted to do that… well, why can’t I just get by butt in gear and work towards something. This was even haunting me in college.

I do have to say that I want to get away from lying to myself though. I’ve talked about starting my own online marketing business… I do not think that’s going to happen. One, I really can’t get motivated in what I’m doing from a personal level, and two, the competition is just so so fierce out there. Take my good friend Doug. His, SEOformyWebsite.com site optimization business is just taking off. I know he’s pretty passionate about what he does, but also, he’s pretty good at what he does as well. For me, Finding that passion/skills thing is hard. While I may be passionate about one thing, chances are, my skill set isn’t cut out to make something of it on my own.

Phoenix offers me a lot of good opportunities to get myself out there though. I think once I really get settled in to my job, I’ll be able to dive deeper and figure out what it is, that I’m supposed to do. I’ve always had my entrepreneurial goals, and right now, they’re sitting on that back burner. Getting another degree, or maybe trying to work my way through an MBA at (Employer Reference Removed) will help me find a way to bring those ideas back into light. It’ll be then when I can begin to really work for myself, and work towards something I know I’m going to love. But until that time, the best thing I can do, is work out in my head, a plan for success for me, and for any kind of future business I might try to grab onto. Figuring out what will work and what will keep me motivated for a long time will be tough, I’m not gunna lie to you.

I’m motivated now though. More so than ever, and I’m not just talking. My happiness is at stake.